I have been “cheating” as the nurse calls it and POAS since Saturday. Everything has been negative so far. So this morning I didn’t use the Crinone. Those suckers cost $12+ each! I got my blood test and then went back home and made my self a cup of decaf coffee. Sooo good with hot cocoa mix in it! I have resisted decaf coffee since we started IVF because I was told there was still some caffeine in it. I went to work and got the results around 3:30pm. Negative! Of course! I kept my cool on the phone. The IVF coordinator sounded really sad for me. We setup the appt to talk to the RE on Aug 17th. I wanted earlier but she is unavailable…they estimate FET will be October! Because I need time to rest my ovaries and take meds!
After work I went and bought coffee chocolate chip gelato, gluten-free vanilla cream cookies, and ingredients to make pasta Alfredo…my comfort food. I got home and was so upset I just cried my heart out. I screamed at the top my lungs… It’s painful. I thought I’d prepared myself for this…
After I got my act together I made dinner. TriMan wanted to but I insisted. We ate dinner and I had 4 cookies afterwards…(I avoided sugar as much as possible before). They taste just like the blonde Oreos…my weakness before going GF. Then I just felt like having a Sierra Mist. So I told Hubby that I was just going to sugar it up! “don’t judge me…” he said do what you want! LoL… I am going to have to detox tomorrow!
I will start BCPs on day 3…period expected within a week. I plan on going to acupunture and taking herbs throughout this coming cycle. Also, add back in the Mayan abdominal massage!
Night all,
Faith
Journey to my BFP through Faith 
I think wallowing in some sugar is completely okay. I’m so sorry. I hope your next cycle has much better results.
Thank you Katherine! I am feeling a lot better today. 🙂
Hi Faith~ how are you feeling? I hope you got my email (I think last time you said it went to junk mail) Hope you’re feeling better sweetie! xo